Life Of An Act Cute Shinigami

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English prelims were today. Should have done well? Hope so. Been taking MRT and bus with her for the past few days, been really so hectic that i am all worn out. Until today that is...

Can you imagine your friends comparing you with her behind your back. Saying things like you are too ugly to suit her. How could some do such a thing. It was why i didn't want anybody to know in the first place.

These past few months, i suddenly realise i have been backstabbed many times. Many remarks passing behind my back. LITERALLY. 'ACT CUTE' is a name i have always been stuck with. All of you think that i always try to act cute. Always being lame and telling jokes. I was really trying very hard to fit in. To make friends. I even curbed the stupid desire to swear vulgarities every time i open my mouth.

However, i still drifted away. Slowly. So why am i so angry? I don't think that it really is anger. Just sad to know the shit impressions my friends have of me.

What should i do now? Am i worthy of her? So many things running through my mind. I guess all that i have tried to do, tried to change these past few months are things i shouldn't have done eh.

Are you all truely friends with someone?

Think hard before answering.

Think hard before making comments that could hurt your friends next time.

F***